Sunday, January 29, 2023



Hi, all!
So I am now day 3 post-op and am back home down here in Portland. (We got back yesterday afternoon).
My surgery went great w/o complications, said my neurosurgeon. my CAT scan afterwards showed no brain bleeding & that they leads were placed exactly where my neurosurgeon wanted them placed.
Overall the surgery was a weird experience! It was strange being awake for so much of it. It was really bizarre feeling the vibrations and hearing the sounds of the skull drill – and also hearing the sounds of the scalpel scraping into my skin for the incisions. It was also weird to feel them take out the test leads/electrodes – it felt like them pulling out a long spaghetti noodle from my brain. It also felt weird having them poke and prode around inside my brain while being awake. The most uncomfortable part of the surgery BY-FAR was them removing the catheter… (OUCH!)
The surgery took about 6hrs total.
Next week on Thursday (2/2/23) I’m going BACK up to UW in Seattle for stage II of the procedure – insertion of the Medtronic pulse generator & the connection of the wires to it.
They won’t turn my pulse generator on for a little over one month after this upcoming surgery. My first programming appt is March 3rd.
Overall the care and team at UW was fantastic! I’m so glad I had my retired-ICU nurse Mom there to keep me company and make sure the nurses were doing things correctly! My Mama is THE BEST nurse, ever!
We ran some annoying issues with my medications they were suppose to provide me… Just them not having them on hand and the nurses messing them up in the computer… And one SUPER incompetent pharmacist at the pharmacy when we were trying to pick up my Oxycodone to leave the hospital. (Boy was that a story!).
First picture is immediately after surgery – other picture is yesterday afternoon.
Thanks again, all – for the prayers, well-wishes, and good vibes! I can't tell you how much I appreciate it!

Monday, January 23, 2023


My surgery is in only 3 days! Can you believe it? It's been 2 years now of pursuing this... I can't believe I'm actually going to have this done and that I get to have this opportunity. My surgery is on Thursday 1/26/23 bright and early at 8AM. I would appreciate the continued prayers for my well-being during surgery and for a complication-free surgery! 

Wednesday, January 18, 2023

Saturday, January 14, 2023

A Great [And Short] Neuro-scientific Explanation of The Mechanism of OCD. 

A very fascinating and simple explanation of how OCD works and operates in the brain! 

Wednesday, January 11, 2023

Today was an EXTREMELY difficult day…

But I persevered and got through it!

I had my pre-op appt at University of Washington today in Seattle as well as an MRI. I also got my labs drawn.
The drive up to Seattle from Portland went quick – no traffic and a nice day out. We were able to find a parking spot quickly and have time to eat lunch at the hospital cafe before my 12:30PM pre-op.
The pre-op appt lasted for an hour, and we discussed mainly just surgery prep and details about the aftercare. I also found out which area of the brain they want to target for my leads for the DBS surgery.

After the pre-op, I was able to go right to the lab and get my labs drawn before my 1:45pm MRI appt – got it done just in time for my MRI appt.
My anxiety started getting REALLY severe before the MRI while I was waiting to be taken back to the MRI machine – and I had a FULL-FLEDGED panic attack. It was god awful! Having to sit in a gown in a curtain-separated room for 45mins trying with all my might not to start bawling my eyes out and start freaking out... But I somehow managed – and my Xanax kicked in a little bit and I was able to finally calm down once I was in the MRI machine and got my scans. The MRI took an hour and it was a fine experience. It wasn't uncomfortable for me. Except for having to wear the stupid damn masks that every hospital makes you wear. (Even though surgical masks are NOT effective for preventing the spread of the 'Rona).

After the MRI, me and my Mom left UW and went straight to our favorite Greek restaurant just north of Seattle where we’re staying the night with her childhood friend at her house. I’m so lucky we have them to stay with during my appts, during the surgery, and for the follow-up appts. It's 100x better than staying at a hotel or AirBnB.
Overall today was a success! I’m so surprised I was able to power-thru that panic attack, though. Boy was it a bad one!
All my MRI results came back and everything in my brain is normal. Nothing of concern to be seen.

The surgery is planned 15 days from today – so we’ll be driving back up here on the 25th to spend the night, then my Mom will drop me off at the surgery pavilion for my surgery bright and early in the AM on Thursday the 26th.

We're still waiting to hear back from insurance re/ if they’re going to cover the costs of the DBS surgery... Likely they wanted these MRI scans before making a decision. Fingers crossed they DO cover it!
Please pray for me, my friends! Both that insurance will cover the cost of the procedure – and that I will have the strength to go through it and recover and make the MANY return trips up to Seattle (every 2 weeks) for the follow-up visits and programming of the pulse generator in my chest.